Countdown!

Thursday, April 30, 2009 { 6:52 PM }

Naturally.

Chemistry(5072) and Physics(I cannot remember) O level SPA is OVER.
Like. Officially. Over.
*screams in delight*

One whole day studying tomorrow at Siwei's house with Chanel, Jessie, Siwei, Daniel, Maybelline, ShiCheng. I certainly think it'll be fruitful. Especially since we have Daniel the pro in science, math and everything else there. He shall be my guidebook for science. Hoho.

Got back several tests this week.
I have to say, Chemistry was a total disappointment. My only saving grace would probably be the Data Based Question for the Periodic Table test. I passed with a 7/12, thank goodness.
Math was great. Of course, not being complacent or over confident because it'll just kill me. Careless mistakes are still evident though.

Exams will be looked forward to because after that will be a serious shopping session with Chanel, Jessie and Chanel's mum, who has good fashion sense. Awesome! But first, I have to beat SA1. Those marks stand on their own, so I'd better make good out of that one chance I have in the hall for every single subject paper.

I wonder who sang "Skyway Avenue" at the spiral staircase today in front of **** *** and **** ***** :D

Oh, Cindy, Serhiang, Sueyi, Sinpei and the rest(Siwei, Yaode..) are so fun!
We're the Pu family now.

Sunday, April 26, 2009 { 1:08 PM }

I apologize for that error my DEAR Ruth.
It's unforgivable. ha.

SA1.
My nightmare.

Thursday, April 23, 2009 { 5:13 PM }

Drained.
Nothing's going to get me down though.
O level Chemistry and Physics SPA skill 3 test;SA1.

I've learnt well enough not to become a stumbling block to others.

After hearing the earnest comments/views on how some of my Non-Christian friends have about us, it makes me wonder whether we're really living the Word and shining the light we are supposed to. Are we truly living as children of God or are we merely putting up at pretence at church? Do each and every one of our actions show a hint of Christ-likeness at all? Or are we just trying to blend in with everyone else?

Apparently, they don't seem to have a very good impression of us. Even the person whom I heard from said that we behave like anyone else-anyone else who doesn't attend church. It's not that they think we're weird or just out of place. Rather, they see us conforming to the world.

Indulging in childish quarrels, spouting vulgarities or just crude words, having a fun time laughing at obscene jokes are just what we shouldn't do. Of course, I have to admit that sometimes this tongue of mine loses control and crude words like "Shit" and whatnot come out of my mouth. However, have we all taken a look at ourselves and checked our attitude? Have we been of a good influence to our Non-Christian friends around us? If we haven't, what's the point of bringing them to church when they already have the impression that Non-Christians are just as good as Christians? My friend once said she asked her mother this: "Eh mummy, why Christians go to church and yet still behave like those who don't go to church?"

Ponder about that.

For that, I already have to admit I haven't exactly been the most Christ-like and all.
I have been a stumbling block to others.
I haven't been shining the light I'm supposed to.

I guess the standard most people have for us is really high because we are Christians.
They'd expect more of us rather than the atrocious behaviour we have at school when other Non-Christians can do better. I understand that now. I truly do.

This has got me thinking a lot on our actions. I reckon it's time for a revolution. We should change-for the better.

Perhaps many may think that this is hypocritical. Then again, isn't this what we should do? Isn't this the right path to choose to take instead?

Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you can test and approve of what God's will is-His good, pleasing and perfect will.

I've said my piece.
Now it's time for everyone of us to do some soul searching. And that includes myself.

Sunday, April 19, 2009 { 3:04 PM }

Post deleted.
I shan't let you get the better of the situation.
Just because you say that I'm that sort of person means I'm that sort of person.
I'm true enough to myself to say that I didn't bother about this a long time ago.

Chanel, Jessie, Cleo, Jacelyn, Siwei!
15th May will be dress up day! wooo.

My happiness and joy derives from His love.
I feel so renewed.
I really do. Thank you SNN for encouraging me! :D
This may be late, but yes. Thank you!
I like the GB pin! hahahah.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009 { 9:17 PM }

Take these chances to turn it around
Just take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around
Just turn it around

I burst your bubble? Aww. Real sorry about that.

Monday, April 13, 2009 { 7:36 PM }

I think I'm beginning to slowly release pictures from that day :D
10th coy, 10th coy *clap clap*
Can't get over the fact that 4 years just past by like that! *snaps fingers*
RTC, LTC, BADGE CAMP, NO CAMP(this year).
2 Drill Competitions, Awards Ceremony, AAC, P&D and so many more.
I love my girls! Every single one.
(Oh, I can see the tip of my white flats in the photo! I simply adore those flats. They make good footwear for any occasion!)

Plus, I have taken a sudden liking for dresses.
Shopping after exams on marking day with Chanel (and hopefully Jessie) for a lot of things!

Geography test marks the start of a gone-case. I'm just hoping Wednesday's A math test on Differentiation and Integration will be as smooth as the previous one Mrs Goh gave. Open book test-but usually no help. Oh look. There's AAC practice tomorrow. Final one in Full Uniform and I will be practicing for Emcee as well. Prefects' Investiture rehearsal on Wednesday, nothing on Thursday except maybe Chemistry remedial-Thank goodness-and the actual AAC on Friday. Last lap! I'm running my best now.

If I could find you now, things would get better.
We could leave this town and run forever.
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away.

Ocean Avenue :D

Sunday, April 12, 2009 { 4:01 PM }

Yes, that's me in Chanel's/a dress(For the very first time.)
No, I don't know why the spastic action.
I don't know whether I look like my usual self or not.

I know I'm blogging for the second time in the same day, but nevermind.
I'm tired. Really tired. Then again I don't want to get burnt out before mid-years. It's in two weeks. I don't even know how to start on revision when I have to study for tests. Mentally tired, really. It's draining! I'll push on, till the end.

I don't know what's wrong, whether it's just me feeling this way.
I want to find out for myself-is it, still?

On a tougher note:
Indifference would be the better tool to put into use here because it'll just mean that I really can't be bothered about whatever you do already.
At least I know my conscience is clear. Haven't been affecting people around me just because of a minor matter. (Well, it's minor to me.)

Oh, I was promoted! 8D
Sorry, not trying to piss anyone off here.
Either way, congratulations to whoever was promoted as well.
To Charmaine: You go girl! Next year! Take good care of the girls! I'm counting on you and Reena! {3
To Veron, Esther, Ruth: Talked to you guys about it! Really admire the spirit you girls have! And I thank you for not minding me talking about the promotion thing in front of you! Thanks once again! I hope I was tactful though.

Loves!

{ 1:04 PM }

And take me where we need to go to find a little snow
Out where the fire logs will need a little spark to grow
And tell me to close my eyes and quickly fall asleepbefore you know shows
They’ll be here soon

This, is how I'm feeling now-Gay.
(Apparently, that's how I look in the photo.)

I have absolutely no idea when this was taken and neither can I recall myself posing like such.
I'm currently wondering how Big Ben can actually derive his sense of satisfaction from taking spastic/unglamorous shots of people. Honestly!
(Yah, Peiru, if you see this, show your brother -.-)

Praise God :D
Happy Birthday people!

Saturday, April 11, 2009 { 12:04 PM }

Enrolment was the bomb!
So was the sec4 graduation dinner at sakae! :D
Really awesome. Almost everyone followed the dress code=dress.
Except Ruth(Expected! She said she doesn't own one) and Charmaine. But that's only because she can't find any. Met up at West Mall at around 6pm. Saw Cleo and Ruth! And to our horror, we saw a bunch of BB boys in uniform walking towards us. Ran franctically to hide. Thank goodness they didn't see us.

Took the train to Tanjong Pagar, camwhoring almost all the way and finally settled down to eat from around 7-930. Camwhored AGAIN! We SOOOOO should've gone to icon village to have our graduation photoshoot. Those little "rooms" they have there have got GREAT dimensions. Those blocks on which we sat on and where we posed made it look like some America's Next Top Model photoshoot. -.- Right. Anyway. We were making a lot of noise. And when I say a lot, I do mean it. Walked out with Xinping and Cleo to go to the toilet and we could hear our giggles, laughter and near-shouting voices. Mind you, we weren't the only ones in sakae! Met Jacelyn and Siwei on the way out. Went to toilet together and when we started talking about something, we burst out laughing so scarily, people who were approaching the toilet were apparently freaked out by us. Ruth, you're guilty as charged for agreeing!

Had great chats with the rest of the girls.
It's really awesome to look back and think of how tiring the journey was, but yet in the end, it was a fulfilling one. The friends we've made, the close bonds we share, and the neverending laughter we can always always look forward to when we spend time together.

Passing down is hard.
And YES. I WANT TO KEEP THAT BADGE. Grrrr.
At least Peiru got to pass it down to someone who's taking up the post as CSM.
Well, I just really hope the whole council, though small, can work well together. Charmaine, you've got to lead them :D Jiayou!
I still feel I haven't done enough! I think that's why I want to go back and serve. Contemplating, but almost sure.

Photos some other day! (Imagine the time I have to take to upload all of them. Almost close to 200 plus in one persons camera.)

Friday, April 03, 2009 { 7:32 PM }

I never thought I'd be saying this, but I don't want to pass down.

No, not that CCA is my life, but Fridays will definitely be mundane without GB.
Perhaps I found myself complaining about things I had to do, the uniform I had to lug around the school(Especially with the dumb homeroom system.)and the many practices for Drill Competition we had, but looking back, each and everyone of those things have bonded our secondary 4 girls together. The friendship forged would be one for eternity. The encouragement going around after the release of the results for Drill Competition was absolutely heartwarming. Besides, the many camps we've gone through together would be unforgettable. Yes, and showering with you, Jacelyn Lim tiko. *coughs* 'white'.

I guess the irony is when we finally start realising how important the things are, we lose them.
Or maybe it's just for me.

p/sI promise I'll go for PBB next year(:
And Jacelyn, if you fail(touch wood), we'll go together next year.

p/p/s Miss Tay will always be the best teacher-in-charge ever!

p/p/p/s Feilicia, I wish you were here cause we'd really love to have a gathering. All sec4s-complete, as well as Enrolment Fancy Drill'07 :D!

Thursday, April 02, 2009 { 6:58 PM }

Second chances they don't matter
People never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more
I'm sorry, that will never change

And about forgiveness
We're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey but I'm passing out
Now look this way

:D

Fraudulent!
Pharisaical!
Duplicitous!
Ohmy. Doesn't that describe all of us? At least at times. We can't deny we've never been such people, can we? Even I have to admit I've been hypocritical.

When we take a look in the mirror, who or what(Perhaps 'what' would be more accurate.)do we see? A reflection of our monstrous inner being? An angelic portrayal of ourselves? Or maybe it would be someone you'd hate to be-the person whom you have always been criticising.

Well, who knows. Maybe what you are seeing is just a reflection which is oh-so-perfect just because of your own biased opinion of yourself. (Source unreliable.) Others, may not view you as such.

I guess that's probably why we have absolutely no right to find fault with someone else. That's simply because we've all done something wrong before. Be it the same wrong or a different wrong. A wrong is still a wrong and I'm sure that you, my friends, ages being close to 16 or above, can distinguish between wrongs. A blatant wrong doing and an accidental wrong are all still wrong. Outrightly doing something wrong, however, deserves a punishment much more than accidental wrong-doing.

-.- I'm digressing.

Now then, can we, with absolute assurance, say we are all as perfect as we have always thought we were? Or maybe now we can start to slowly identify our flaws-no longer just pinpoint the flaws of others, because that little flaw of ours may actually be the reason why we always had a grudge against another person?

So please. Do take a look at yourself clearly and objectively in the mirror first and see what you are actually like before declaring that another person has flaws so irreparable, so deep that not a single deed can redeem them from that abyss of darkness they are falling into. Apparently, you're falling into the same situation.

And to clear any doubts, this applies to myself too.
It serves as a reminder how I should think before I say something and how I should look at myself before I look at someone else. It may sound critical, so please tell me if it does and I'll try to correct certain things. Besides, as the old saying goes, no one is perfect, right?

Oh, don't tell me you're no one.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009 { 6:33 PM }

I adore mind games and I relish the fact that I get to play them-well.
Expertise.

I'm just going to do a recount today.
Sit back, relax and enjoy Changyen's storytime.

I still recall the time Jacelyn and I had a conflict so bad, we were throwing dirty looks at each other everytime we walked past one another. Leaders had to step in to help to resolve it and I still remember we cried in the cafe one day before Enrolment 2008! *faints*
When we talked about it the day before Senior Drill Competition, we saw how stupid and childish the reason for our conflict was. Plus, how we went around gossiping and telling everyone about how bad(I'm using a mild word here for that case)the other person was and ended up affecting those around us, causing them to take sides-which shouldn't have been so. As the Chinese saying goes "yi ren zuo shi yi ren dang"; a person responsible for his actions should also be responsible for the outcome. No other innocent party should be dragged into whatever situation those two in conflict are in. Come to think of it, it wasn't worth it at all.

In retrospect, the reason(s) for the conflict were hilarious(Okay, at least, when I think about it now.)but it's amazing how we couldn't laugh it off then.

Lol. Sorry for bringing you into the picture, but I think this is really worth sharing.
After going through the DI course with Siwei and you, I think we've been talking a lot more than we used to. That's a good thing too! Looking forward to our 9th time showering together. I sounded a wee bit lecherous there, but it's okay!

I know that wasn't a proper recount, but I seriously am unable to recall what we talked about in her room that day -.-

Kennedy and Khrushchev. US vs USSR.
It takes two hands to clap and two parties to acknowledge their faults before something can be settled properly. If one resorts to some underhand mean to do something, the other wouldn't appreciate it. Basically, don't gossip -.- Diplomacy is something not many can master. The Cuban Missile Crisis was peacefully solved without affecting the rest of the countries around them when the two parties compromised. They sought each others opinion and were receptive, I suppose? (Correct me if I'm wrong. I didn't really pay attention during that chapter.)

Now isn't that a happy ending?

Oh, Happy April Fools' to all out there.
No, not that my post was meant to be a joke.